So…SEX. I’m really not that interested lately. And by lately, I mean maybe, perhaps, months. Several months. You see, among many issues my husband and I have, one of them is sex. Or lack thereof. He wants it. Me, not so much. Part of the problem is my self image. I had a baby 7 months ago and this saddlebag called my stomach Does Not Help the situation.
Aaaaand then, there’s the approach.
My husband cannot walk by me, say hello to me, hug me (you get the picture) with out groping. He gropes. All The Time. Even if he’s not really trying to get sex, he’s still wants to cop a feel. Even in front of PEOPLE. Now he’s not obvious about it front of others, but he’ll still do it. Newsflash hubby of mine — This is NOT a turn on. It is NOT sexy. I AM NOT PRODUCE!!!!!! Stop squeezing me please!!!
I want my husband to sit by me on the couch and just hold my hand without trying to grab my ass. I want my husband to hug me hello without squeezing a boob. I want my husband to let me wash my hands, the dishes, ANYTHING in ANY sink ANYWHERE without having him rub his junk all over my bum. Yeah — he’s that guy. WTF?!! Just let me BE sometimes!!!!!!
I want to be approached like he loves me, not like I’m a white trash trailer chick itchin’ for him to put his hands on me and say “HONK HONK” as he squeezes away. I want to make out before sex. I want to be kissed and caressed. I don’t want to feel like an object. Is it any wonder why I don’t seem to enjoy it that much? Everyone has got their ways, and this is mine and my hubby has known that from day one. In fact, I’m pretty sure if I was any other way he wouldn’t have even married me! Yet he treat me just like anyone else and not his lovely wife, mother of his child.
Yeah, so I probably seem like a prude. Whatevs. I got the “your the kind of girl a guy wants to marry, not date” statement from different guys a few times. But THAT IS WHO I AM. It’s not secret. To each his own and this is MINE. (Does that make sense?) My husband, he knows this. I make sure to remind him of how much I despise his groping every time he does it. BUT HE STILL DOES IT! WHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY????????????????????
Ok, calming down. I would think that if my hubby wanted sex more than he’s getting it (and that’s not much since we have a baby and I’m so NOT interested) that he’d try and make it more pleasurable for me. Then maybe I’d actually WANT to do it more often. But no. He’s a selfish jerk when it comes to sex. What guy isn’t, right? RIGHT? (Please say I’m right).
I just want a break from all the groping. Please! It’s not an act of love. Manhandling the boob does not say “I care”. Just tell me you love me and hold my hand. That’s all I want.