You Call Yourself A Friend? Ha!

friend friend pronunciation /frɛnd/ Show Sp
–noun
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.
3. a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?

I used to think you fell into definition #1. But lately, I’m feeling it’s more like #3. Maybe. If I’m being on the generous side. I mean, really? You call yourself a friend? When was the last time you called me? When was the last time you invited me anywhere? When was the last time you just sent a freakin’ email or FB post to see how I’m doing? You were never really good at it in the first place, but ever since I had my baby it’s like you’ve dropped off the face of the earth. Or maybe I have. I don’t know.

I know you’re on FB. You post things. Sometimes I “like” them. Sometimes I comment. I made sure to wish you a happy birthday. Do you ever respond? No. But you respond to 95% of other people’s posts. Have you changed your mind about me? Do you hate me now? Have I done something wrong? I wish you would just tell me. Because I don’t believe I did, unless you consider having a baby “wrong”. And the other “friends” in the group? Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight. We’re in our freakin’ 30s. Should there really still be shit talking? I mean, if you don’t fucking like me, DON’T PRETEND you do. I don’t give a rat’s ass! Seriously!

But those are the other girls. YOU. You I’ve been trying to maintain a friendship with. But I HATE one sided relationships. If I wanted to feel unacknowledged and under appreciated, I’d clean the house!! But when I send you cards in the mail, send you emails, post messages for you — I expect a damn response. I don’t give a fuck what your excuses are. Because I don’t necessarily believe them. I believe you got caught being a jerk, and so you had to do something to make up for it quick. And yet I’m STILL waiting for this note you claimed you were going to send. Whatever. I’m over it. I’m over this circle. I’m over these “friends”. I’m over this city.

You seem to continue to alienate people somehow. Ever think it might be you? If you’re happy not having family or long term friends, then great. You’re on the right track.

But you’re missing out on me. I’m a friggin’ awesome friend. I rock in the friendship arena. I am LOYAL and HONEST. I am HELPFUL and CARING. I am SUPPORTIVE and SYMPATHETIC. I am FUN and EASYGOING. But you probably forgot all that. You seem to have forgotten me.

Good luck with your “friends” over there. I’m sure they’ll treat you as well as you’ve been treating me lately.